I remember when I first started to question the world we live in. I was only 21, highly focused on superficial things like material possessions, money, looks, etc. I remember very clearly sitting at the dinner table and my brother was sitting right next to me. We were talking and having a good time…when he suddenly says “did you know that our world is ruled by a group of corrupt global elites and they’re just trying to take over the world by destroying humanity with their hidden agendas?” WHAT? I didn’t know exactly how to respond to that but I definitely remember thinking my brother was losing his mind. What is he saying? Who are the global elite? What is this all about? I had so many questions and not enough answers.
That same night, I did my research. I fell DEEP into the rabbit hole of truth….the truth of our reality. I had anxiety. I felt depressed. I felt angry. I felt sick to my stomach. I couldn’t believe the information I found….I was in complete shock. It felt weird to know that we’re living a lie. That everything is a complete illusion. That society and the people we look up to and give our power to do not care about our well being and our sanity. That we are slaves to our system. This was all insanely hard to hear and process at 21 years old. I was simultaneously going through my own personal trauma at the time so hearing that humanity is in the hands of evil didn’t exactly help. Funny enough, my spiritual awakening began that same year.
As time went on, I felt scared of sharing this information with others. I was afraid of being judged and being called crazy, and I was scared of losing friends and loved ones. I didn’t want to trigger anyone so I would stay silent even though I had so much to say and share. I knew that I would be called a “conspiracy theorist” and no one would truly understand me. As a kid, I felt misunderstood and when I started to “fit in” during my high school years, I didn’t want to lose that. I worked so hard trying to bury myself in the superficial part of life, completely neglecting my authenticity and who I truly was. I was terrified of losing the image that I created so I would suppress my opinions and follow the crowd. I’m proud to say that today, I’m choosing to step up differently…not just for myself, but for humanity. I’m choosing to stay in my power and help others find theirs. I’m choosing to speak up no matter what anyone says and thinks. I’m choosing to share my knowledge with the world and help them see new perspectives to this life.
There’s so much that goes into this, so much corruption and truth that needs to be exposed. It’s important to understand that when you are in the middle of awakening to the truth of our reality, be gentle with yourself. It’s not easy and it’ll take time to process everything that you were conditioned and programmed to believe. Be gentle with others that may not be aware of this dark truth and allow people to wake up on their own time. We all have our own beliefs and paths so it’s important to remember that we have to be compassionate towards each other. Plant seeds of awareness with love, not judgement. Remember that we’re all on this journey together.